i m sad...very sad. no appetite. haven eaten the whole day hais

ok so i jus recover my password... time for some real update now =D

hmmmmmmm... time have really past during this long holiday. anyway i jus wan to be a happy person =D smilling all day. real smile comin from true heart =D

now very hard to think of thing to write seh =.= haha paiseh. anyway i hav choose sp to be my school now =D i takin marine engineering. the process is so ma fan one =.= and hor my dota skill hav improve greatly till yh is now jealous =.= haha thats all ba. i noe its abit boring but u all jus wait. nxt time i bring good stuff show u all =D

I miss 4E1 ! the class the teacher the ppl the cca the food and everything =( i miss my friend.everyone seem to hav change in one way or another...i hav change too. life is gettin more boring and sian...i got no goal in life. nth make me happy like last time. i m like turning into a bad guy...so fan and stress. i dunnoe wad to do in life. i dunnoe whether to go jc now or anot.i dun hav a close frend in my class..i m lonely and sad... i miss everything tt is happening last year...everything single little thing whether happy or sad. i noe it canot happen again...it can only remanin as part of my memory. everyone got a life to go on and decission to make. i hate to make decisson tts why i often say anything or dunnoe...at least it make me feel better. i go new sch or environment i find it hard to start a stable and gd friendship with other...it takes a long time to see one's character and i hate it. i dunnoe to choose jc or poly now...everything seem so blur to me now...i m confused...i really dunnoe wad to do next.i m goaless. i sometime feel like screaming at the top of my voice and punch sumthing. i wan to be happy but i jus couldn't...i really got no idea wad is wrong with me. i miss the day in henderson...at least i noe wad i m trying to aim for...my o level and everyone would work toward tt goal =) but life now is different for everyone. many thing hav happen after o level but i tend to remember the sad thing =.= i sometime feel so useless. when ppl is fan wad do they do??? cut wrist, smoke, take alcoholic drinks, drug, fight or jus find trouble and maybe tinking of sucide... i m really scared really really very scared... i m scared to hav changed. why can't life be the same as it used to be where everyone used to be happy and good. maybe time will heal everything. i dun wan to lose anyone or make relationship worse... i m so afraid... maybe next time when we met outsdie somewhere we may jus bypass each other like stranger. i wan to cry , i feel like crying but can anything help??? maybe time will heal everything...i dunnoe

Being happy is a good thing. but its sumthing tough to be happy. everyone had their own problem. jc life is okok only. my group is not tt gd...everyone is scattered around........

okok no more sad thingy. got to be happy =D

No nid worry abt me =D
i m ok

It been a torturing week. I m sad basically. i shouldnt be say anything out to her, at least she might be happy.i make her cry...feel so useless.why did i say it out.i should hav kept it at the bottom of my heart and everything might be jus fine.it hurtful to see her sad and tear.i enjoy being by her side, i still remember the happy day we had together and dream of wad we would do in future but...

Right now i dunnoe whether we r jus frend or wad we used to be b4 the sad thing happen. i m confused. i wan to pretend nth had happen. hope she doesnt noe anything abt it and at least i was the one suffering not her.i try to nap or sleep, tryin not to tink too much but i jus couldnt control my mind... whenever i tink i will feel sad or feel like cryin...wad shld i do???

has everything come too late? or we shldnt hav started it at all. i dun wan to see her sad or cry anymore. i will jus wait for her. wait till she is rdy.

Hai...been feeling quite moody these few day. Nth much to say anyway...